- Problems began when she endured six months of sexual abuse as a teen
- Though Aimee Wilson never told anyone, the abuse haunted her
- At age 18 was diagnosed with a personality disorder after being sectioned
- Battled mental health problems and depression for years
- At her lowest she was forcibly medicated and attempted to end her life
- After a stay at a specialist hospital is on the road to recovery
- Has set up a blog to help others with mental disorders
A woman has overcome a five-year battle with depression which saw her sectioned and try to end her own life, and is now determined her experience will help others.
During her darkest period Aimee Wilson, 23, from Blyth, had to be forcibly medicated in hospital, following two attempted overdoses and was placed on a ventilator.
But now, having come through the other side, Aimee has launched an online blog to help other sufferers of mental health problems by showing it is possible to recover and move forward.
Amiee hopes sharing her story on her blog will give hope to others struggling with mental health problems
Aimee, who has been diagnosed with a personality disorder, was first sectioned at the age of 18, beginning a five-year battle with her mental health.
The professionals who treated her believe the mental health problems which swamped her were sparked by sexual abuse she suffered in her teenage years.
Aimee’s downward spiral was so great that she became determined to end her life.
She attempted suicide twice through an overdose, once in June 2012 and again in October 2013.
On both occasions, when she refused the treatment needed to save her life, she was sedated and placed on a life support machine under the Mental Capacity Act.
Even once she was off the ventilator, doctors had no option but to deliver her medication forcibly through tubes, and Aimee would often try and pull out her drips.
An overdose saw Amiee placed on life support. During her stay in hospital she attempted to pull out the lines giving her medication in a further attempt to end her life
But less than six months later, the 23-year-old is looking to the future after getting her own flat and starting over again.
She said: ‘I had got used to the idea that I would end up killing myself and that I wouldn’t grow old.
‘I wanted to die so much, I was using my toes to try to pull out the treatment tubes when I was in hospital.
‘But I feel really positive now. I can’t believe I have come this far.
‘I think it’s important for people to know there is always hope and you can get better.’
Aimee’s problems began when she endured six months of sexual abuse by a man she knew.
So terrified she would not be believed, the then-schoolgirl never reported the attacks to police.
However, the mental scars stayed with Aimee throughout her teenage years.
And as she sat her A-levels she said she began to hear voices in her head.
At the beginning of December Aimee moved into her own flat, and as well as writing her blog (left) has begun volunteering for a charity that helps blind veterans
As the stress of exams and her undiagnosed condition got on top of her, Aimee began taking high doses of prescription medicine in an attempt to block out her feelings.
Then one day she passed out and was taken to hospital. She was eventually sectioned for two weeks at the St Nicholas mental health hospital in Gosforth, Newcastle.
‘It all happened so quickly,’ she said. ‘One minute I was revising for my exams and the next I was in a mental hospital.
‘I was terrified. I had no idea about mental health problems. I just thought I must be going crazy.
‘Because I was 18 I had to go on an adult ward and I was with people who had been really unwell for a long time. It was really scary.’
Aimee spent the next three years in and out of hospital, attempting suicide twice, and in 2011 was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder.
What is Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)?
Personality disorders typically emerge in adolescence and persist into adulthood.
BPD is best understood as a disorder of mood and how a person interacts with others.
Many people with the condition self-harm and attempt suicide
It is estimated that 60-70% of people with BPD will attempt suicide at some point in their life.
BPD can cause a range of distressing symptoms and patterns of abnormal behaviour, including:
- overwhelming feelings of distress, anxiety, worthlessness or anger
- difficulty managing such feelings without self-harming – for example, by abusing drugs and alcohol or taking overdoses
- difficulty maintaining stable and close relationships
- sometimes having periods of loss of contact with reality
- in some cases, threats of harm to others
‘They had to give me the drugs through tubes because I just wanted to die,’ Aimee said.
In July 2012 Aimee was transferred to a specialist hospital in Yorkshire, and began her journey to recovery.
As she recovered she decided to tell people what had happened to her for the first time, writing of her experiences on a blog.
Entitled , Aimee’s honest account of her battle with mental illness has now been viewed more than 62,000 times.
‘I started it two years ago, while I was in hospital,’ she said.
‘At first I didn’t have much faith in it and I didn’t realise how big it would become.
‘But I have now had so many positive comments. I had kept my mental health problems a secret for all these years.
‘No one talks about mental illness.
‘Even when celebrities do come forward they are always quite guarded about what they say.’
Aimee was discharged from the Yorkshire hospital last September.
‘Almost as quickly as it started it ended,’ Aimee said.
‘All of a sudden I didn’t want to kill myself.
‘I wanted to live my life and recover.’
On her blog she explains: ‘As I progressed through my recovery from Borderline Personality Disorder, I’d like to think that my blog now also provides people with hope, and determination.
‘That people read it and see that you can feel completely and utterly worthless and hopeless to the point where you think the only way to get any relief is to end your life, and you can come back from that; you can be happy again. You can enjoy being alive again.
‘Being in recovery doesn’t mean my life runs smoothly. It doesn’t mean I don’t feel how I used to or have those thoughts again. phentermine And it doesn’t mean I’ve forgotten how hard life used to be, or how much hard work I’ve had to put in. I’m forever grateful.’
At the beginning of December last year Aimee moved into her own flat in Blyth and has begun volunteering for a charity that helps blind veterans.
She has also been asked to take part in research studies at universities and to be part of a panel to improve services for mental health patients.